Stop Flapping Your Wings little Hummingbird

Today I've taken a hard hit.

I went in for an appointment to see the specialist on concussions. There are so many things I'm not allowed to do until I am "symptom-free", meaning: no more headache, no more fatigue...you get the picture. I'm really at a loss, my whole life has to change, I have to drop out of baseball, hockey, and ringette. All A league as well that I was recruited to play in. I'm basically to take everything off my plate, she even wants me to hold off on school for a year. The school thing is never going to happen, let's get that straight right away. I'm supposed to have naps or periods of rest every time I feel like I'm getting winded, which by the way is a lot in a day. These periods of rest are not what I would call rest either, like watching TV or dicking around with my computer. The periods of rest are literally resting my brain not just my body...like DO NOTHING. Even when I do nothing I do have to do something, say I have a bath...I go in there with a book, sometimes a meal :P, I put a movie on, basically I never relax which attributes to the fact I never can sleep. Sleep is my number one objective to getting healthy again. My little hummingbird of a mind never rests, it's usually light out when I fall asleep and I don't sleep much when I lay there, nor do I stay in bed for long. Regular sleeping habits are key. OK I'm going to try as hard as I can at that.
I can't believe I won't be playing any sports for months. You know, team sports are my addiction. I'm not a drug addict or an alcoholic but I literally am addicted to playing sports and I find myself in an identity crisis without them. Also I have a hard time meeting new people without them. She said that 8 concussions is outrageous for a 26 year old and that it's extremely dangerous to even go hop on a bike or dance or jog without severely damaging my brain. Here I am asking yeah but when can I go play hockey? It's non-contact hockey, but inadvertent contact always happens and I'm usually the reason it happens. They should have some sort of support group for people like me. She said you need to realize that the next time you get one while you're recovering from this one you could potentially die. FLAT OUT said that. Yet I'm still contemplating playing ringette and definitely coaching. I need a slap in the face.